_my love for you;

Monday, June 19, 2006

i am sick of this. sick of always tolerating you. i have always told myself to tolerate. but my patience has its limit. i have been trying to give in to you all this while. yes, you did give in sometimes...but you seemed to have changed now. i can't even believe that it is you. i think i have been giving in too much that you think you deserve it all along. once i refuse to give in, you show me your temper. what can i do? i can only bear with it. if i argue back, what would you say? i'm tired. i'm sick. do you even know how i feel? do you understand? sometimes, you just start a quarrel out of nothing. show me your black face for nothing???? and i hate the tsk tsk irritating sound you always produce. i hate your rolling of eyes. i hate the cold treatment. what did i do to deserve that? you tell me and let me think that i deserve all these. tell me why you're doing this, what's the reason. and fine, i'll just go along with you. just tell me.

some people only see one side of something. they do not see the other side. worse still, they always see the bad side of things and thus accuse people. they just hurt people. can't they see people are putting their best in everything they do? can't you see a change in them at all? can't you see them trying to improve themselves, trying to change the initial impression of themselves? some people just totally left out this little good side of people. and there they go, scolding the people, leaving them feeling unjust. is this fair? how do you even know that they're not putting in their best when you have never turned up before when they needed your help? are you even worthy of scolding them? are you?? you dont even know it yourself. it is useless to apologise, then commit the mistake over again. the hurt that you have caused in some people are just too deep. deep till they can't feel anything at all. have you ever given a thought how they would feel? for your information, you might have just discouraged them and changed their impression of you into someone who sees things one-sided and unjust. in the end, you're the one at the losing end.

5:42 AM :)