_my love for you;

sick.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

i was sick. and i am still sick. argh. down with flu, headache, sore throat and cough. felt sleepy during lessons for the past few days. ahhhhhhh. school's ok, as long as i dont think about that supplementary ws. heh. i carn type well today. for every sentence, there'll be at least an error. e.g. repetition of letters, spell wrongly, type something i was thinking about but did not meant to type it down. sigh. my brain's not working well. and it's very very uncomfortable to always sneeze, like every 15min, there'll be a continuous sneeze of about 3-5 times. that's the not-so-severe-case. the worst is want to sneeze also canot sneeze, but the feeling is just there. bleargh. i hate falling sick. grrr. the medicine doesnt help. boo

6:13 AM :)

LOVE

Saturday, June 24, 2006

I know we quarrelled real hard these few days, because of many different matters..trival ones. important ones. there was even once i felt this hatred in me. i kept asking myself why this had happened, and whether it was my fault. whenever i think about it, i'll just break down. i don't know why i can't controll my emotions well these few days. i may appear as if i don't bother about anything. but deep inside, i am feeling the pain. the pain we inflicted on each other, ruthlessly. i cried when i confronted to you. i cried when i thought about it. i cried when the situation doesn't improve. i cried when i thought this would go on forever. we started this cold war. but when you smsed me just now to ask a question, my heart melted. i really hope that we, together, can remove this barrier between us. No matter what happens, i'll always love you, sister. and i really hope you can say the same thing to me someday.

2:29 AM :)

Monday, June 19, 2006

i am sick of this. sick of always tolerating you. i have always told myself to tolerate. but my patience has its limit. i have been trying to give in to you all this while. yes, you did give in sometimes...but you seemed to have changed now. i can't even believe that it is you. i think i have been giving in too much that you think you deserve it all along. once i refuse to give in, you show me your temper. what can i do? i can only bear with it. if i argue back, what would you say? i'm tired. i'm sick. do you even know how i feel? do you understand? sometimes, you just start a quarrel out of nothing. show me your black face for nothing???? and i hate the tsk tsk irritating sound you always produce. i hate your rolling of eyes. i hate the cold treatment. what did i do to deserve that? you tell me and let me think that i deserve all these. tell me why you're doing this, what's the reason. and fine, i'll just go along with you. just tell me.

some people only see one side of something. they do not see the other side. worse still, they always see the bad side of things and thus accuse people. they just hurt people. can't they see people are putting their best in everything they do? can't you see a change in them at all? can't you see them trying to improve themselves, trying to change the initial impression of themselves? some people just totally left out this little good side of people. and there they go, scolding the people, leaving them feeling unjust. is this fair? how do you even know that they're not putting in their best when you have never turned up before when they needed your help? are you even worthy of scolding them? are you?? you dont even know it yourself. it is useless to apologise, then commit the mistake over again. the hurt that you have caused in some people are just too deep. deep till they can't feel anything at all. have you ever given a thought how they would feel? for your information, you might have just discouraged them and changed their impression of you into someone who sees things one-sided and unjust. in the end, you're the one at the losing end.

5:42 AM :)

flag day on father's day

had flag day yesterday
a wierd day.
haha
went to paragon with jiahui, shinyi they all to ask for donations
business not bad. heh.
was asking for donations when two ladies came to ask if i wanna participate in the 4 million smiles campaign. so i did. haha.
wonder how they're gonna take 4million pictures of people smiling.
:)

after that decided to drag jiahui so that she can take a pic too.
haha
went into paragon with jiahui to find a toilet
took us 5min
haha
oh, asked donations from a family of four
father donated lotsa money
asked one of the son to help donate some to jiahui
father said, " go and find the aunty..where's is she?"
haha
jiahi was mad
:p
in the end he donated all to me cos he cant find 'aunty'
LOL
x)

mouth dry and aching from asking and smiling all day
was asking and suddenly an indian man came
thought he wanted to donate. haha
but instead. he said this "you're beautiful, you shouldnt be working here. $#^%*&)^&^$%$@$#@(%&)*^&)$^ (couldnt catch what he was saying), you have a big heart. May god bless you."
then he walked away
stood there. amused? hurhur
^_^

after a while, noticed an indian man taking photos of the busy road
also took pics of the ice cream man
guess he was a tourist
came and asked if he could take a photo of me
awkward. felt weird.
haha
so i politely rejected
:)

went to have lunch with jiahui at Mcdonalds
we saw a marquee with a mcdonald sign on it
so we crossed the road to get there
without a traffic light
but with several guys
we just merely 'followed' them
haha
realised that the Mcdonald there only sold milk shake and drinks
disappointed
so we decided to go to the Mcdonalds at lucky plaza
crossed the road again, without a traffic light
but this time, alone
almost got knocked down by a taxi
goodness
-_-

had fish burger, fries, coke
jiahui ad i took 3 packets of tartar sauce
heh
oh
and a vanilla ice cream
:D

went back to work
several people asking passers-by to do some survey
one woman was HYSTERICAL
it is like when a participant got something right,
she would jump. yes, JUMP
and screamm
and laugh
and laugh
and leave the participants and others to look at her with a question mark in the face
haha
so funny
:D

started to drizzle
jiahui came and complained that a woman was pestering her
for a teddybear
hahahahaha
we wanted to run away from her and find a shelter (TAKA)
but she found us at the traffic light
started asking for teddybear
but we didnt have any left
so she told us to get one and give her
and that she will be waiting here for us
shudders
we left hurridly
wanted to shop in TAKA
but the earings were too expensive
so didnt buy anything
:o

stopped raining, went to Heerens to find shinyi they all
walked one big round
ahhhhh
donated $1.30 (combined with jiahui) for 3 tissue packs
FLIPPY!!
haha
=D

after walking, we met some people asking for donations for forgot wad organisation
jiahui and me donated $2 each
'_'

met some kids running the 'little entrepreneurship' programme
very cute
kept telling me and jiahui to buy their stuff
so me and jiahi each bought a bracelet
asked the boy how mush
$5, but i give you discount.
50cents!!!!
WOW. i thought he wanted to sell those stuff for 50 cents
but he went "no, is discount of 50cents. so now $4.50"
haha
adorable
we didnt notice the camera sneaking from behind
jiahui turned, facing her backside to the cam
hahaha
xD

met the guys at heerens finally
but we decided to go on our own
for some reasons
many people stopped us, trying to get us to donate
BUT WE ALREADY DONATED
and me and jiahui and almost nothing left in our wallet
sigh
=(

went back to find the woan who wanted a teddybear outside paragon
she's still there!!
went to tell her that we dun have anymore teddy bears left
she said nevermind and went to stroke jiahui face!!!!
eek
in to paragon's toilet me and jiahi went
this time, to wash jiahui's face
haha
o_o

got bored
so we started counting how any people wore pink(for jiahui)
and how many wore red (for me)
haha
got even bore-der
so we decided to stop and strolled back to return our cans
haha
then we went home
to celebrate father's day
and eat cake
haha
:)

haha.
it's nice ending each paragraph with a smiling face
=o)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, PAPA! :)

3:53 AM :)