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Thursday, March 30, 2006

i haven been blogging for a really long time. Been very busy =( Had two prac today--chem and bio. VERY FUN. =D had math quiz. i didnt know how to do it in school but i somehow got the answer at home just now. grrr. so angry. got very irritated in school cos of irresponsible people. =( ok. i gtg eat dinner. goodbye.

This is just like a race, just that it is a never ending one. we have to run round and round the track, numerous times. we look only at the front, never turning back. Getting tired, out of breath with every round, the demon in our hearts urging us to stop, to slow down, to gulp down some water. but the angels kept saying that we mustnt give up, or all that we had run just now will be a waste. struggling. mentally and physically. we're confused between the two. who shall we listen to? will we regret the choice? legs hurting with blisters, mouths dry, visions blurred. the pain, stress, frustration, released in that second. salty. or is that just the perspiration? air that have been kept in the lungs so long heaved out. constriction, gone forever. or maybe just for that moment. sour feeling in heart. Asked ourselves, why did we join this race? is it for the sake of our dreams? Or is it to just acheive fame? could it be that we're doing it because of someone? What exactly are we doing it for? confusion. whirlpool. stuck. red flag. no response. but we know that we mustnt surrender. dilenma. shoe laces free from knot. envious. tripping over myself. picking myself up. demon inside howling, screeching. we see people cheering for us, and we saw the finishing line. or isit just an illusion. we don't know.

1:24 AM :)