_my love for you;

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Went to shinyi's house after school today with kaihui, jiayin and jiahui to bake our teachers' day cake =) had loads of fun. i think the chocolate cake made all of us high..hahah...we were all laughing like mad for 4 hours! i think Shinyi's maid might think that we're all crazy. LOL.

the process...

the outcome ...

LOVES!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

:) :) :)

i still can't believe i'm foolish enough to leave teeth marks on my leather handphone pouch. hahah.

7:53 AM :)

Saturday, August 18, 2007

(:

what happened this week:

-we had a change of tables and chairs! they're light blue instead of brownish beige now. and they brighten up the classroom. i bet my chair will be the dirtiest soon, 'cause i have to always step on it to on that stupid projector. the teachers should include this under service in NYAA! hahaha

- Wednesday and Thursday were the "joke'y" days.

- On wednesday, 5 of us told at least one joke each. super lame and sick ones. HAHA.

- On thursday, kaihui jiayin shinyi and i (jiahui went to island creamery) were sitting on the swing beside the canteen. Sipei came and helped pushed the swing. she swung it very hard that kaihui and i felt quite insecure... so we were holding on to the pole at the sides JUST IN CASE. haha. Then we started to tell sipei whatever jokes we can think of. HAHAHA. stomach felt queasy after that..not sure if it's from the laughing, or from the swinging. had a headache too. LOL

- Founder's Day celebration today. I feel very lucky to be a sec4 this year. (: cause we're the batch of students who get to experience stuff like: being the last batch to be able to choose btw o'levels and IP, being able to have mdm mak as our former principle, and ms yap as our new one, being able to celebrate the 90th anniversary of our school and so on.

- the five of us decided that before we graduate from ny, we have to leave our mark somewhere in the school, where it will stay for quite some time, either because it's unreachable, or the school can't afford to tear down or do sth to the thing we ~~engraved~~ left our names on. HAHA. on the last day of school, we will also go out to have a buffet together (: and not to forget, during the last week in school or sth, we will stay back after school and buy at least 2 meals from each canteen stall to feast. HAHAHAHA.

:)

ok. it's late.
brain not working very well at this hour
i need to sleep.
bye.

1:00 AM :)

Friday, August 17, 2007

Don't cry Joni

Woman - Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

Man - Joni was the girl who lived next door
I've known her I guess 10 years or more
Joni wrote me a note one day
And this is what she had to say

Woman -Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up someday you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

Man - Slowly I read her note once more
Then I went over to the house next door
Her tear drops fell like rain that day
When I told Joni what I had to say

Man - Joni, Joni please don't cry
You'll forget me by and by
You're just fifteen I'm twenty two
And Joni I just cant wait for you

Man - Soon I left our little home town
Got me a job and tried to settle down
But these words kept haunting my memory
The words that Joni said to me

Woman - Jimmy please say you'll wait for me
I'll grow up some day you'll see
Saving all my kisses just for you
Signed with love forever true

Man - I packed my clothes
And I caught a plane
I had to see Joni
I had to explain
How my heart was filled
With her memory
And ask my Joni if she'd marry me

I ran all the way
To the house next door
But things weren't like they were before
My tear drops fell like rain that day
When I heard what Joni had to say

Woman - Jimmy, Jimmy please don't cry
You'll forget me by and by
It's been five years since you've been gone
Jimmy I married your best friend John

i remember my dad used to play this and other oldies in the car when my siblings and i were really young. haha. Then as the song is being played, i'll just sing along at whatever part i know, which was then, "Jimmy please say you'll wait for me. I'll grow up someday you'll see. Saving all my kisses just for you. Signed with love forever true" and "Joni, Joni please don't cry. or, Jimmy, Jimmy please don't cry". hahaha.
such a sad song. makes pple go awwwwww.
HAHAHA

WHERE HAVE ALL THE FLOWERS GONE

Where have all the flowers gone?
Long time passing
Where have all the flowers gone?
Long time ago
Where have all the flowers gone?
Girls have picked them every one
When will they ever learn?
When will they ever learn?

Where have all the young girls gone?
Long time passing
Where have all the young girls gone?
Long time ago
Where have all the young girls gone?
Taken husbands every one
When will they ever learn?
When will they ever learn?

Where have all the young men gone?
Long time passing
Where have all the young men gone?
Long time ago
Where have all the young men gone?
Gone for soldiers every one
When will they ever learn?
When will they ever learn?

Where have all the soldiers gone?
Long time passing
Where have all the soldiers gone?
Long time ago
Where have all the soldiers gone?
Gone to graveyards every one
When will they ever learn?
When will they ever learn?

Where have all the graveyards gone?
Long time passing
Where have all the graveyards gone?
Long time ago
Where have all the graveyards gone?
Covered with flowers every one
When will we ever learn?
When will we ever learn?

i like the tune of this song (:

hahaha. i realised that i have been listening to quite a number of sad songs when i was young! haha. so young, that i didnt understand the lyrics..so i sang quite happily to each tune of the songs then. heh. but now i know (:
this post is so random. yeah.

9:46 PM :)

Thursday, August 09, 2007

天灰

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

wet pillows. puffy eyes
dried lips, wet cheeks
i know how it looks like to have bloodshot eyes now
laid awake in bed last night, looking out of the window.
had a splitting headache
and my mind was in a twirl.

i haven't utter more than 10 words today.
i didnt speak or look at them in the eyes at all
i was practically emotionless.
and numb.

i really dont understand why i have to always give in to you
not only did i get nothing in return,
you always give me reasons to get frustrated and cry
everything, i tried to close an eye and
let you go your way
but what did i get in the end?
some accusations that whatever trouble or problems you caused
is definitely related to me
and it is my fault
it is also my fault that i get angry over it

when they were talking about it last night
you will never know how i felt then
i was gritting my teeth
i was crying silently
so silently
that i was choking and gasping for air
my lungs and ribs were hurting so much
the tears just flowed uncontrollably
i even had to dig my nails into my flesh
to try to control my sobbing
how did you felt then?
i definitely didn't felt ok
i am tired of lying
especially because of you

it's time to stop
stop defending you
stop giving in to you
stop pretending that i mind nothing at all
stop teaching me how to lie
stop teaching me to wear a mask
stop teaching me how to feel numb.

you have reached the limit.
finally.
i'm really tired of these.
zhen1 de4 hen3 lei4.

maybe some day,
you should try being me
then can you really experience
what i have been feeling all the while
towards you

i dont want any 'sorry's
sorry is useless if you keep repeating the mistakes
and i have learnt this from you

there are times when i am down

and times when i'm not

but when i'm very down

i think you ought to know

that it's because of you

i was viewing the fireworks from the balcony just now

it was super cooling with the breeze blowing towards my face

the entire area was dark , except for the lightings of houses

and the fireworks

such a beautiful picture

i wished i could stop time

and stay in that moment forever

shall stop ranting. it will never end.

goodbye

time to watch troy

a joke i took from my eldest brother to brighten up my day. and perhaps yours too :D

7:06 AM :)

hmmm.
i have no eyebags today 'cause i slept twice the number of hours i always do! :D
hahah.
ok. so random.
Happy national day to all!

had cross country yesterday. jiahui, jiayin, kaihui and i were really strolling! HAHA. shinyi went to join other squadmates to run. The 4 of us were actually among the first group to start the fun run. but we strolled soooo super slowly that the other levels overtook us. and kaihui was jiayou-ing to the sec1s, to prompt them to run faster so we could be the last. HAHAHAHA. and we achieved our goal! :) we were only starting to JOG when one teacher threatened to ask for our names and punish us. hahahahahah. jiahui's officially the last 4th, kaihui the last 3rd, jiayin the last 2nd and me the last. hahahaha. 'cause jiayin and kaihui crossed the finishing line a fraction of second before me. LOL. i feel accomplished, of course in the wrong way. =)

我的心是个落叶的季节
i tried . you know it.
so why did you do it?

12:37 AM :)

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

:)
it's cross country tmr, which means it's half day =) haha. YAY. i'm not gonna run. i shall walk and stroll and admire the not-really-nice scenary (turf city!) . hahah. wait. that means i'm breaking the rule of "no walking. RUN". LOL. argh. shant care. it's my first and last year of participating in the cross country! no public duty and feeding of mosquitoes! :D

SIL today was quite boring. some ASEAN thing. i can't absorb a thing. so i was counting with jiayin the number of "right" and "yearh" the speaker said. 184 times in 38 minutes! hahaha. shuhui xinyi and the others behind were counting too! so hilarious. hardwoking jiahui was busy sribbling her notes. hahah.

Pictures of students from the sec4 level were screened after that. gosh. everyone looked SO different as of compared to when they were in sec1/2. haha. i saw my face twice. and one of them was a close-up! 0_o The whole level was like laughing at both themselves and others. HAHA.

my brother's unusually nice these few days. he bought me panda biscuits and kissable chocs. wonder what he's up to. he told me to watch out. hahahahah.

:D :) :O

黑夜如果不黑暗　
美夢又何必嚮往
破曉會是堅持的人最後獲得的獎賞

黑夜如果太黑暗　
我們就閉上眼看
希望若不熄滅就會亮成心中的星光

7:41 PM :)

you're not me

you won't understand what i'm going through

you can't feel the pain as i'd felt it

you won't know how you can experience pain though you're numb

you don't know the tears i'd shed

you don't know the struggle in me

the struggle to keep both of us alive

and out from that damn pit she's sinking into.

7:15 PM :)

Friday, August 03, 2007

i think, therefore i exist

hey :)

it's the sabbatical week and i took the KI (knowledge inquiry) and chinese movie modules. :) KI, surprisingly, wasn't as boring as i thought it would be. haha. learnt a lot of stuff and i'm now feeling smarter than before. heh.

Monday:
- cogito ergo sum. i like this theory :) 'cause i had such thoughts when i was young :)
- watched part of matrix
- blue pill/ red pill?
- i thought i would like to have the red one.

Tuesday:
- lessons were okay.
- Mr Tan from HCI came. i couldnt answer his question properly 'cause i couldn't hear him clearly. i think i'm going deaf.
- after school, stayed back for the founder day's song.
- followed by the class' teachers' day performance rehearsal
- Went for the teaching of first aid and TOC (transportation of casualty) to the China students. :( not very enjoyable, i would say. the students were inattentive, they kept swinging the bandages like some cowboy, a wierd guy kept snapping pictures with his phone almost every 1-2 minute or so, and a clumsy guy made me fall. the enjoyable thing is eating the sweets meant for them. HAHAHA.

Wednesday:
- we went over to HCI (college)
- the school is so brown. it looks dull :(
- i must learn to love brown more. hahaha
- 4 of us (Kaihui wasnt there) had discussion with 2 JC1 guys
- Scenario:
Him: "Do you all have any questions?"
Me: *shakes head GENTLY. (i didnt know the others were flipping through their notes)
Him: (according to jiayin and shinyi) "ok smart ass, define existentialism."
Me: (said the first meaning) blahblahblah
Him: talk cock
Me: (said another meaning) blahblah
Him: talk cock
Me: (said another meaning) blahblahblah
Him: "Actually, the second and third meanings make sense"
Me: 0_o then why you did say 'talk cock'?
Him: hurhur.

LOL. and he said that shinyi is a sadist because she wanted to be a pilot ? huh? hahahaha.
- jiayin jiahui and shinyi were unusually excited after the tutorial. i shant say why, but i disagree with them. so does kaihui :D :) =)

Thursday:
- watched part of minority report--> precrime
- played games with the donkey cards
- watched a very touching movie for the chinese movie sabbatical
:)

okay. that's briefly what happened this week :D
jiayin look, i updated!
shinyi, my blogskin is still pink 'cause i haven't change it yet. (it answers the question!)
jiahui, get well soon! build up your immune system! hope to see you around real soon :D
kaihui, i still have your sweet with me. i forgot to bring it to school yesterday!

goodnight and sleep tight :P
bye!

12:49 AM :)