_my love for you;

Sunday, July 30, 2006

been listening to spongebob's campfiresong song
haha!!!
i like that song
C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E-S-O-N-G- song
HAHA.
so cute
and funny
LOL

i like this part of a song too:
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
YAY. listening to songs are nice.
=)

6:52 AM :)

continued

jiayin and i, still on the hill

in the bus

i never knew jiayin could make such horrible funny face. HAHA. kidding.

3:40 AM :)

continued..

a picture of shinyi who is taking a picture of me taking a picture of her. LOL.

another pic of us five
SUNFLOWERS. jiayin, shinyi, jiahui, kaihui and i

Picture taken with jiayin. supposed to be a
sunflower background. somehow the angle
makes it seem like we both have flowers on
our hair. LOL.

shinyi and i at the 'breath-taking-bird's-eye-view-jurong-hill' --> according to mr lim. LOL. GASP! my hand is longer than shinyi's! haha.

2:36 AM :)

Saturday, July 29, 2006

ok. i shall blog about my sabbatical--Imagining Sinngapore. it's rather slack, but i've learnt some interesting stuff from it. haha. oh, and it is fun, cos you get to places around singapore. =)

First day (went to Singapore River, little india, kampong glam, chinatown):

bought this bracelet at kampong glam with jiayin. =) yay.

jiayin and i in the bus. it's hard getting a nice pic on the bus with the bright light and bumpy journey. haha. why does jiayin's fringe looks so wierd? ohya, forgot that she cut it herself. HAHA

lucky chap. haha.

ohya, at kampong glam, me, jiayin, jiahui, shinyi and kaihui wanted to take a look in the mosque. a taiwan guy helped us check if the people at the mosque allowed. then, he started talking non-stop to us..talked about actors and actresses..bad stuff..blahblahblah. started speaking in hokkien..i just nodded my head here and there, wanted to go away. but he kept following us..kept talking. ahhhh. finally, mr han came and 'rescued' us. PHEW.

2nd Day (went to bukit timah hill, jurong industrial area, harbour front, tanjong pagar)

a half-yellow-half-black-ant crawling on a leaf. cute.

10:36 PM :)

for fun

1. What time did you get up this morning? 9.15am (supposed to be 8..but ohwell)

2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? i cant rmb..been watching DVDs at home

4. What's your favourite TV program? CARTOONS! justice league, batman, spongebob
squarepants

5. Peace or war? peace '_' v

6. What's your favourite cuisine? i eat everything..no favourites. HAHA

7. What foods do you dislike? bittergourd.. bleraghhh

8. What is your favourite crisp? i'm trying not to eat them

9. What's your favourite CD at the moment? duno

10. What kind of car do you drive? toy cars. haha. I HAVEN GOT MY LICENSE YET!

11. Favourite sandwich? egg + ham sandwich

12. What characteristics do you despise? proud, cold, super sacarstic kind, kiasu

13. Favourite item of clothing? skirt bah

14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? i'll be happy if i can go for a vacation..no specific ones though

16. Favourite brand of clothing? ehh.. it really depends

17. Love or Hate? Love

18. Favourite time of the day? 11pm. it's the only time when i can forget about school! SLEEP!

19. What was your most memorable birthday? all? cos each birthday signifies something to me

20. Where were you born? Sinagpore, Gleneagles Hospital

21. Favourite sport to watch? ice-skating comp

22. Who do you least expect to send this back? dont know

23. Person you expect to send it back first? dont know too

24. What fabric detergent do you use? i think it's TOP and dynamo. haha

25. Were you named after anyone? Nope

26. Do you wish on stars? no, i just gaze at them

27. When did you last cry? yesterday

28. Do you like your handwriting? i'm fine with it

29. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with yourself? Yes..best friends. haha

31. Do looks matter? model answer: no. Sigh, like as if it is in society.

32. What were favourite toys as a child? lego blocks aand dolls

33. Where is your second home? still my first home

34. What class in school was totally useless? Integrated Humans? rather boring.. and i dont score well

35. What is your favourite perfume? i don't use perfume!

36. What is your hobby? listening to music, surfing the net, day-dreaming

37. What's your nickname? fingernail, zijie (for those who can't pronounce my name properly) ..

38. Work or sleep? half-half

39. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No. i just slip my foot in and out

40. Do you think that you are strong? physically, not bad. mentaly, quite

41. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? rum-and-raisin

42. What are your favourite colours? red limegreen blue black pink

43. What is your least favourite thing about yourself? dunno

44. Who do you miss the most? not missing anyone at this moment

45. Do you want everyone you sent this to send it back? i sure hope so

46. What colour trousers/skirt are you wearing? whitish grey

47. Revenge or forgiveness? forgiveness

48. What are you listening to right now? spongebob's campfiresong song

49. If you were a CRAYON what colour would you be? red

50. Last person you talked to on the phone? jiahui

51. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face

52. Favourite drink? milk

53. Do you wear contacts? yep

54. Favourite day(s) of the year? weekends and holidays

55. Scary movies or happy endings? both! but i prefer happy endings..very sweet

56. Summer or winter? Winter

57. Hugs or kisses? both!

58. What is your favourite dessert? Ice kachang and ice cream

59. What book(s) are you reading? you jin's books

60. What's on your mouse pad? the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th finger of my right hand, dont know why
my little finger is kinda left out. haha

61. What did you watch on TV last night? carn rmb the name of the show

62. What's the farthest you've been from home? korea.

10:25 PM :)

Thursday, July 13, 2006

ahh... there's math and chem tests coming up next week. SIAN. tmr there's bio spa. next week hand in bio sia, and only got to know it today. next week have biology quiz. next week, Ms Oei is gonna change our seating arrangement. next week, we're gonna choose our sabbaticals again. next week, there'll be a nice special day. =) next week, i wanna watch pirates of the carribean--dead man's chest. next week's weekend, i'm gonna relax. Y next week................

my schedule is so packed
argh
im feeling quite stressed up
i want to study as much as i can
but there doesn't seem to be enough time
have to do this
have to do that
sian
tired.
i suck at trigo proving
bleargh

5:49 AM :)

stOp

Monday, July 10, 2006

you just repeated your mistake again
today.
i'm really pissed
and i'm sure you know
this is not the first time
since when did i ever remember your first time?
i hate this
i hate it
please
stop forcing me to hate you
there's this hatred in me right now
i know it's wrong
but you're the one causing it
you dun understand me
you'll never understand
you dun care
you'll never care
you dun stop
will you never stop too?
you're pushing your limit
too far
till i really can't stand it anymore
i'm screaming inside
screaming to ask you to stop
screaming for help
but i bet you can't hear it
cos if you did
you should have stopped
long ago
i feel like punching the wall
i've tried
it doesn't really hurt
i know the reason
that's because i can't feel a single thing
at all
i'm numb
because of you
numb till i feel like i'm half dead
bring me to life
i can't even feel the pain now
why must you become like this?
where is the 'you' i knew before
since when did you change so drastically?
why can't i recognise you at all?
you seem liek a complete stranger
read this. i know you're reading.
and i dun care
i dun give a damn now
it's true
i can't do anything now
i'm just standing there, alone
telling myself to be strong
and never to shed a tear for you again
but i failed
i can't do it
i feel that amount of air trapped in me
i want to heave it out
i can't
cos everytime i heave it out
you capture another one in me
i can't breathe
and there i am
choking
but you left me there
watching me
as i cried helplessly for help
you smirked
laughed
why have you changed so much?
tell me the reason
i want to know
right now
i can't stand this anymore
i can't hold on any longer
i feel like i'm hanging on the edge of the cliff
i feel like letting go any moment
to release myself
from you
from the torment
i feel like blasting music right now
right into my ears
so that i can forget everything
everything that just happened
hoping to wake up to realise that it's just another nightmare
but i cant wake up
i cried
secretly
without you knowing
without wanting you to know
i hate this
crying alone is the saddest thing on earth
shedding tears for someone you know isnt worth your tears
but i cant hold back
i just have to release
i confronted you
again
but what did you do?
as usual
i'm getting sick
of this
of you
of this torment
when will it ever stop?
will it continue forever?
you never seem to learn your lesson
you never seem to be afraid
i'm tired
can you just stop this?
please.
i'm getting frustrated
so stop before i start cursing.
right before you
which i've never done before
and would you like to be my customer no1?
you're most welcome, you know?
so stop
now.
or i'll begin.

'let the rain come down and wash away my tears. Let it fill me soul and drown my fears'

6:37 AM :)

Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I'm loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

6:22 AM :)

Written By:
A. Nova, S. Moccio
Lyrics:

A new day
A new day

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on, and don't shed a tear
Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, now
I see a light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe, I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, now
I see the light in the sky
Oh, it's almost blinding me
I can't believe, I've been touched by an angel with love
Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it fill my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day has come

Hush now,
I see the light in your eyes
All in the eyes of a boy
I can't believe, I've been touched by an angel with love
I can't believe, I've been touched by an angel with love

Hush now
A new day

Hush now
A new day

6:08 AM :)

layered by layer

Monday, July 03, 2006

funfair (1st July) was rather fun...but most of the time, i didnt have that mood to enjoy it. scooped balls of ice cream for hours. rested for only 30min??? siao one. now my whole right hand is swollen and hurting. cant hold my pen, cant hold my chopsticks, cant even stretch my hand. OUCH. and there's blister. An uncle offered to help me scoop, but he scooped for himself a bigger-than-normal-ice-cream-scoop. haha. tried the haunted house (brrr..brrr.pinksheep) with kaihui. was..awfully dark. and the kids kept asking me and kaihui whether we're real. like..HAHA. wasn't really frightened by the 'ghosts'...instead, me and kaihui kept asking them to shine the passage way for us cos we couldnt see at all. LOL. and the tunnels are unnoticable. kaihui and i were walking rounds till we asked a 'ghost' for directions. haha. walked along a dark narrow passageway..felt someone touched my ankle, so i ignored it. little kids behind were screaming like mad, "ahhh....someone touched me..someone touched me!" hahahahahah. so cute. and they went to take those lightsticks away...resulting in me and kaihui getting lost. overall...it wasnt really exciting. but i'm rather impressed by the 'ghosts' who can find their way through the darkness. kaihui went off after that to meet cousins. so me and jiayin went round the school together. sat metheoride twice. find it rather dizzy when it's spinning at ground level. and the pressure is super strong. felt like vomitting after the secong ride cos we ate this cheese-biscuit thing minutes before the ride. didnt feel well after that for the whole day. ohya, did body art with jiayin. we chose this nice heart thingy to draw on our arm. jiayin's one is silver. mine is purple. but the silver on it was smudged cos jiayin always accidentally rubbed it. haha. forgot about the popcorn chicken in the toilet. left it there and when we found it, we were too disgusted to eat it. cos the toilet stinks. haha. and i always seem to be unable to handle MILO well. always spill it on myself. sigh. went back to class...jiajun got pricked by cactuc. helped removeed the pricks wih shinyi, jiahui and shuhui. kaihui cant recognise her own hp ringtone. we ewre like sitting in class...then we heard the ringing. kaihui asked if it was mine, it wasnt. then i asked if it was hers. said it wasnt. then she suddenly remembered that it is hers. HAHA. went home bathed, then slept and went to grandma's hse. didnt have dinner cos i still felt like puking then. stayed in the room and played with cousins. baby cousin kept crying cos we always threaten him. muahaha. got slapped in the arm with a book by baby cousin. smacked his butt after that. and when he saw two cousins trying to prove their arm power by pushing each other in the opp direction, he said, "you all are bulls har? bullshit erh!". goodness. haha. babies seem to love green and purple balls. they hate white balls. dunno why. so weird. haha.

i know you are always going against me. i kept quiet. but that does not mean that i accept that kind of behavior. you know who you are. i'm not saying it. cos it is so so obvious. you know it deep in your heart.

layered by layer :)
i fear the fear in me. the fear that always pull me down. all the way down.

6:40 AM :)