_my love for you;

enjoyment?? no.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

doing homework and thinking about them all the time during cny. even during vists to relatives' homes. what kind of cny is that? what kind of life is that? so stressed. schools never seemed to understand us. do you call this the happy way of studying? i'll never call them.

i hate this kind of hectic life, where you dun even have time to breathe, to admire and treasure the things around you. perhaps we should go slower.

i am stressed. and tired. and sick.

1:15 AM :)

happie dae todae =D

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

i'm happy today =) i guess this is the first time in 2006 when i'm happy to go to school. haha. Lessons are pretty ok... quite interesting =)) had a chinese culture quiz today. dunno how to do 2.5/6 of the paper. hahaha. soo difficult. not supposed to discuss answers though we are sitting only <>

Had mass dance before lunch. laughed my ass off with shinyi. hahaha. soo funny. When we were doing the slow dance, we purposely swing our hands to hit eleanor's and jiahui's hand. Then we forgot the steps and keep going in the wrong direction..later when we need to move in a circle, shinyi and i instead of moving slowly and gracefully, we pulled and grabbed each other hands tightly and 'swung' ourselves. so we were actually spinning in circleS instead of dancing in a circle. haha. then teacher still say all of us did a great job. lol. we were standing in the front row!!! haha. how amazing. she dint catch us playing. =P

i'll be there for you, no matter what.
if you need a shoulder to lean on, come to me.
i can lend you my listening ear.
cheerup!
look at the bright side of life
ok?
=)) ^^

5:55 AM :)

Form teacher changed seats.

I'm still at the last row
I'm still at the pathetic corner which i hate
I'm still unsatisfied
I'm still frustrated over not being to see and hear clearly from the back
I'm gonna miss my desk mates
I'm sitting beside jiayin =)
I'm still sitting far away from shinyi and jiahui
I'm still trying to adapt
I'm still trying to be happy
I'm sure one day i would. i will.

5:50 AM :)

mary did you know

Monday, January 16, 2006

Mary, did you know, that your baby boy would some day walk on water?
Mary, did you know, that your baby boy would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know that your baby boy has come to make you new?
This child that you've delivered, will soon deliver you.

Mary, did you know, your baby boy will give sight to a blind man?
Mary, did you know, that your baby boy will calm a storm with His hand?
Did you know that your baby boy has walked where angels trod?
When you've kissed your little baby, then you've kissed the face of God.

Mary, did you know?
Mary, did you know?
The blind will see, the deaf will hear, the dead will live again.
The lame will leap, the dumb will speak the praises of the Lamb.

Mary, did you know, that your baby boy is Lord of all creation?
Mary, did you know, that your baby boy will one day rule the nations?
Did you know that your baby boy was heaven's perfect lamb?
This sleeping child you're holding is the great "I am".

6:21 AM :)

sunBURNT. chaoda. scaly. black. irritated.

i am so tired. i am burnt. omg. all becos of the pop rehearsal on sat. now so chaoda. there is a tan at my neck..hurts like hell, touch also cannot touch. arghh. have to put lots and lots of moisturizer. the skin is peeling off. so digusing..looks like scales. bleargh. i hate sunburns. but i like roasted skin, one that is red. =) this sat still have training. grrrrrr. i'll look like some digusting fish that's out of water, with 'scales' everywhere. it hurts lah. must remeber to put sunblock this sat. must remember. ><>

went to sunplaza straight after last sat pop rehearsal with eileen, hushen and jiahui. we went to buy bubble tea. and it tasted...wierd. too milky i guess. and it is soo expensive. the uncle kept asking 'drinks?' to everyone that walked past. so irritating. then later he asked me about whether the drink was too sweet or whatsoever... then i said that it was too ex. then he said that it was because the powder was imported from taiwan..ya ya ya. he said it'll taste different from those cheap cheap one. I felt like interrupting him to say that actually, they taste the same. oh no, it is they taste even better than the one you sell. feel like vommiting after drinking. wierd taste. i'm not gonna buy it again.

had a wierd dream last night. dreamt that i was at war. somehow, i had my quilt cover with me. so i was carrying guns and a quilt cover to war. and my shooting was accurate. shot all the enemies as they march past. come to think of it, it is quite stupid. how come enemy will march in front of you and will not run away when their friends are shot down one by one. lol. oh, and my quilt cover was bullet proof. so i was hiding under it, shooting and throwing bombs around. haha. wierd. lol.

i am in a wierd mood. i dunno why. i am feeling both happy and sad. dun ask me why. for i dun know too.

2:00 AM :)

Thursday, January 12, 2006

oh. it's friday the thirteenth tomorrow. haha.

6:19 AM :)

rainrainrainrain

it's the monsoon season now...nice =) rainrainrainrainrainrainrainrainrain.

Second week of school le. so fast... sitting beside zijing, behind zheng cheng jiu lin (she has the same bdae as me!!!), diagonally right nehind guo cong and diagonally left behind desiree. =) i dun like sitting right at the back, in the last row....cause i tend to get very distracted during lessons, carn stay focused. how i wish i could sit in front, like shinyi and jiahui =( first row. boohoo.

Had chemistry partical today. so fun. me and ee hui were laughing our heads off at the way we looked when wore the glasses. haha. rou hui joined in too. ee hui and me had difficulty starting the bunsen burner... so we got help from shinyi. after that then we realised that it was not because we did not know how to on, but because the airhole was closed, so we carn see the flame and thought there wasnt any. lol. oh, while laughing, we both heard mrs chew said, ' shut the...' freaked out. cos we thought she said 'shut the mouth' instead of 'shut the airhole'. i actually thought i heard' shut up, assholes'. LOL >< i was successful in making crystals!!!! yay! but by the end of cme lesson, they all shattered, cos i kept touching it. what itchy fingers i have. =( haix. must go study first aid le. arghhh. byebye.

5:54 AM :)

bring me to life

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Bring Me To Life

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit
sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling
only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die herethere must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

i like this song =)) i like Daredevil too!!!! ><

5:25 AM :)

white flag

Monday, January 02, 2006

white flag--Dido

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door, I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was then Will be there still
I'll let it pass And hold my tongue
And you will think That I've moved on

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be

i like this song =)

1:34 AM :)

friends forever

Graduation-- vitamin c

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25I
keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in june
I didn’t know much of love
But it came too soon and there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We’d get so excited, we’d get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life’s not fair
And this is how it feels

1:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

Repeat 1 x3

1:27 AM :)